I don't know. I'm sick and tired of being with my family. I just want us to be happy together. Is that so hard to ask?! Mom is like total stranger to me nowadays. She doesn't want to interact with me. She communicates more frequently with my siblings than me. Everytime I saw and think of this I feel sad. Fustrated.

I go school, I'm surrounded by friends with facade friendliness. I came home.. I'm surrounded by family that doesn't gives me affection. All they think is about I spend too much money. Everytime I open up my mouth they shun away from me. I know. Some how they think I was gonna ask them to buy this and that. But how can they be like this? After all I'm just 18. I'm in my teenage years. I'm just like others. They can just said no and treat me with affection again.

I'm tired of this. My siblings don't like me too. My parents says I'm not good enough. And doesn't care about me. I don't want to be down with depression. I don't want everybody to shun away form me. Especially my family.

If it things should be this way, and I can't changed it. Forget it. I must be strong and independent. I must not let that falter and move forward by myself... even if there's no one standing beside me.