My apologies to my closest friends! I'm sorry if i hurt you in anyway with my previous post on July 2 & 9. It was uncalled for. But was in a moody and pissed off mood. Do understand! :)

Dad and mom went for a trip to Indonesia today. And they didn't bother to inform me before hand. Its always the same habit. Whatever they did or do, they're always informing me at the last minute or the day itself. Why can't they just tell me a day earlier?! And they're not even back yet..

School's still the same. The impacts of inevitable stressness from the same various factors. Again and again. Is this the way how God is testing me? Seriously.. I'm not a strong person who can withhold tremendous challenge. I prayed to God everyday that he does not place me with many difficulties.

I'm at the busiest lane right now. Lot's of upcoming presentations, tests and exams. OMG!

I hate studying nowadays... don't know why. Probably due to the surrounding factors. Hate it.
Hate the "SUPERFICIAL" friends.

Ohs. By the way, went early to school today to consolidate some freakin survey. Cause a few days ago i went to Sentosa to collate information pertaining to the evaluations of attractions in Sentosa. Actually, in my personal opinion, I don't really like Sentosa at all. Just a few rides and beaches. What's there to enjoy? But its a different story for the upcoming Universal theme park. Its cool man! I saw the unfinished thrill rides and other constructions. It looks like Genting themepark. But then again, the price would be pricey too!

I'm really stressed out. I'm emotionally strung out and felt almost empty being in the campus. Lecturers in Temasek polytechnic don't want to help me. My so called friends all ignore me and left me to fend for myself. They do not sympathise with me. Even lecturers is biased towards me. They did not gave me a chance to actively participate in class as they purposely missed calling my name. I don't know what to do. I seriously want to complete this course and get a diploma. I don't want to quit just because no one wants to help me.. It will be a waste of my effort after my 3 years of hardwork dedication in ITE, simei. After all i studied so hard to proceed to poly. I just want to get a cert and get close to my dream job. Is that so hard to ask? Why is singapore government making this hard for me? Why does no one hear my pleas? Why is life so unfair.. Is it wrong for someone like me a slow learner to get someone, anyone acquainted to my course to assist me? To guide me?