As each day passes, I'm more curious and am wondering how does my results fare? Sigh. On one hand I'm hoping that the suspend will draw to an end soon. But on the other, I'm hoping that it'll never come out and then i'll never know it. Thats running away.. I know.

I'm going for a job interview tomorrow at Clarke quay. Hoping to get a part time job at some japanese restaurant. I can't always stay at home and rot away can i? Besides, I need to earn my own pocket money too. My mom ask me to bring along my sis.. (grumble) How can i? It'll diminish my chance of getting that job. Even my friends know that. Thats why its difficult for them to intro me. Wherease, Deidre, that kind girl she did. Guess, she still had that innocent in her. I'm glad. At least there's still her left in my circle of friends. :)

Did i mentioned this? Went with my mom, bro and sis to AMK hub to watch Alice in Wonderland 3D. It was awesome. :)) We even snuck some snacks into the theatre that we brought from Fairprice as it'll be less costlier this way. During some scenes, almost some motions were as if it were floating across my face. Lols. Can't blame me. It's my first time. But on the other hand, i was a lil heart pained too. Its cost make me felt a burned in my pocket. Well, as my mom says, its not frequently that we spent like this on movies. So its alright. But still, i can't help but feel a twinge of guilt.

Aww.............................. My head hurts. I wanna stay out and have fun but am not entitled to relax. Oh. Why oh why is I an number idiotic. I just pray god will let me pass once again. Pls Pls!

Mood: Hurt. So hurt. Sad & pissed off.

Just had a so called conflict with my friend. How could she not believe me? She has always been fickle minded. Her moods varies all the time, making one unable to predict what she's trying to make out of the problem or situation.

In truth, I'm really am angry and fustrated with her childish thinking and doings. Its not the first time i'm facing this already. I did mentioned in my previous rantings that I've a conflict with her previously. (About being a model for waxing as a request from my beauty therapy friend. You can read more details about it through the previous entry.) I'm not a small eyed person and don't bear grudges easily. However, because of her similar actions and so-called assumptions has led me to recall back to the similar root of the problem which has happened in the previous conflict.

She hasn't really grown up and hasn't really learned from the previous conflict at all. I am so disappointed in her. Do you know what really happened this time? She assessed the scenario with her so-called assumptions again during our recent outing together, and strongly assumed that I've "held" her boyfriend's hand intentionally. Oh what absurdity! Lols. Pluh-lease! I'm not interested in her boyfriend at all. Besides he's not good looking as of to my standard. And most importantly, he doesn't even meet my criteria at all. I'm not trying to make this situation worse by saying all these. But to me i'm a straightforward person. I don't like being misunderstood unreasonably and being assessed as a bitch who deserved the wrong doings. Everyone do stands up for themselves don't they? When they are absurdly misunderstood and placed on the bad side of the surface. And the most thing that pisses me off is not about this matter. (Well, i could just laughed my butts off this matter. It's a most flattering thought that she think I'll have a chance to smitten her bf to smithereens.) It's the fact that she doesn't believe and trust me through our years of close friendships. She don't even dared to approach me forthrightly and questioned me about her query. And guess what she did? She went behind my back and tattle her assumptions to my other close friend, showing her anger and misbelief to her. Huh! What gives her the right to show her anger and assumptions to someone else when she didn't even approach and confirm her assumptions with me firsthand before bad mouthing about me?

Of course. When it concerns about my innocent in relations to my close friends, I'll have to stand up for myself. But luckily, my other close friend understands me well. She knows that i'm not that kind of person. Li juan, i'm very fortunate to have you as a friend. Though this is one of the minor conflicts that arises among us. But I'm glad because we stick through sad, happiness and years of accompany, did we know about one another better. Thanks for believing in me. :)

But on the other hand, i'm really am wounded by that girl. That girl who once was my close friend. How could I forgive her time and again without that trust between us? I don't even want to think about it anymore. There are important stuff to worry about for tomorrow: my final examinations results. God please save me from getting bad results.

Pardon for my wordiness. I'm turning in soon. Trying to reduce that unsightly panda eyes of mine.

Went out with Shu fang, Min bin and Xian xian today. Supposed to meet xian at 2.30pm but turns out she had a last minute outing with her family to pray at the temple at Paya lebar. I headed out around 2.20pm to meet Shu fang at the KFC. But knew that her boyfriend would be there with her, so took a short trip to Sheng shiong to purchase some sweets to while the time away(as i have to play gooseberry during the time waiting for Xian). Since Xian, couldn't make it at that time, Min bin suggested to catch a movie. And that being decided, i checked my phone out and selected the closest time slot that is available for us.

So the 3 of us took a trip down to Cathy cineleisure to catch Wolfman at 5.35pm. It ended about 7 plus. The movie was not that great. Just the super speed motion of the semi human wolf and sound effects that brought on a lil horror. Hahaes. I admit. I'm a little frightened myself. Lols. In fact, I jumped a little from the cushion.

I called Xian after the movie ended. It was sticky situation. She said she was at Bugis waiting for us and thought that we were at Bugis catching the movie. But we forgot to mention to her that we've changed the venue. On the other hand, Shu fang and her boyfriend suggested that we travel to TM to have our dinner. Xian was angry when we suggested her to meet us at TM. So in the end, I offered to meet Xian at Bugis while they travel back to Bedok (a changed in venue again). And so, we headed down to the mrt station together.

As the mrt arrived, I entered into the train thinking that both my friends would enter too. But didn't expect that upon turning around, Shu fang and Min bin were standing outside the platform smiling and waving to me instead. I, of course, was a bit pissed off. How could they leave me alone to the trip way back? Unbelievable. Nevertheless, as its a minor thing. I just shrugged it off. Perhaps it was my growling stomache that strike up that impatience of mine.

Meet Xian at Bugis mrt control station at 7.40pm before heading back to Bedok inter to have our dinner. We brought bubble tea, sat and chat till 11.30 before we each parted ways. :)

Sorry Xian! For sms-ing you those words that i didn't meant. As I was really famished from long durations of absence of food.

F R E A K I N T I R E D ~

still not yet asleep.

I am freakin happy today! :) Because today's family day we ate something new and hang out at the beach. After all its been a long time since we did that together. We went to Ang mo kio lorong 8 to have our lunch before heading down to AMK hub for a walk. The best part is my dad treat us to "MOF", Japan Sweets n Coffee. We ordered 2 types of ice cream and a plate of sushi. The ice cream was special as it includes mixture of dango, strawberry, peach and red bean paste. Yum! Sounds weird but taste absolutely nice!! Oishii!

My sister had the green tea ice cream. Her mixture is just green tea ice cream and dango. I tried a little.. but yucks, its just not to my liking. While my bro ate the sushi. I haven't get to see what type of sushi it was and he ate it all up already.

Then about 4 plus we headed down to Changi beach. My mom and i were at the bench enjoying the breeze. While the rest of them headed down for a swim. During that time, I was napping away while my mom was swapping and swatting insects and also not to forget the counting of the intervals of planes that flew past. Lols. My mom is so cute.

They swim like ages before they came up, wash off then we all headed for dinner.

Argh.. my eyebags is getting darker and darker. I just can't seem to go back to normal sleeping routine. Well. It was a surprise. My mom finally suggested to go to JB for facial today. I was ecstatic. Finally. After pestering her for 1 weeks she finally remembered.

My face hurts and burn like hell now. The stupid therapist squeezed my face so hard till my face is so swollen. >,< Need 1 to 2 days of indoor recuperation from the environment.