Mood: Hurt. So hurt. Sad & pissed off.

Just had a so called conflict with my friend. How could she not believe me? She has always been fickle minded. Her moods varies all the time, making one unable to predict what she's trying to make out of the problem or situation.

In truth, I'm really am angry and fustrated with her childish thinking and doings. Its not the first time i'm facing this already. I did mentioned in my previous rantings that I've a conflict with her previously. (About being a model for waxing as a request from my beauty therapy friend. You can read more details about it through the previous entry.) I'm not a small eyed person and don't bear grudges easily. However, because of her similar actions and so-called assumptions has led me to recall back to the similar root of the problem which has happened in the previous conflict.

She hasn't really grown up and hasn't really learned from the previous conflict at all. I am so disappointed in her. Do you know what really happened this time? She assessed the scenario with her so-called assumptions again during our recent outing together, and strongly assumed that I've "held" her boyfriend's hand intentionally. Oh what absurdity! Lols. Pluh-lease! I'm not interested in her boyfriend at all. Besides he's not good looking as of to my standard. And most importantly, he doesn't even meet my criteria at all. I'm not trying to make this situation worse by saying all these. But to me i'm a straightforward person. I don't like being misunderstood unreasonably and being assessed as a bitch who deserved the wrong doings. Everyone do stands up for themselves don't they? When they are absurdly misunderstood and placed on the bad side of the surface. And the most thing that pisses me off is not about this matter. (Well, i could just laughed my butts off this matter. It's a most flattering thought that she think I'll have a chance to smitten her bf to smithereens.) It's the fact that she doesn't believe and trust me through our years of close friendships. She don't even dared to approach me forthrightly and questioned me about her query. And guess what she did? She went behind my back and tattle her assumptions to my other close friend, showing her anger and misbelief to her. Huh! What gives her the right to show her anger and assumptions to someone else when she didn't even approach and confirm her assumptions with me firsthand before bad mouthing about me?

Of course. When it concerns about my innocent in relations to my close friends, I'll have to stand up for myself. But luckily, my other close friend understands me well. She knows that i'm not that kind of person. Li juan, i'm very fortunate to have you as a friend. Though this is one of the minor conflicts that arises among us. But I'm glad because we stick through sad, happiness and years of accompany, did we know about one another better. Thanks for believing in me. :)

But on the other hand, i'm really am wounded by that girl. That girl who once was my close friend. How could I forgive her time and again without that trust between us? I don't even want to think about it anymore. There are important stuff to worry about for tomorrow: my final examinations results. God please save me from getting bad results.

Pardon for my wordiness. I'm turning in soon. Trying to reduce that unsightly panda eyes of mine.