Its not the first time that i'm finding fault with the schedules. It sucks! On the next coming 4 months i've to suffer my monday doing duties for 8 hours. Omg. Instead of chasing the blues away, its adding on to my misery. This is the most expensive course I've entered myself into. It is also the toughest road that i've to thread on in the future.

I've just bought a black court shoes specially for SSM. Dyed my hair black. Purchased a set of uniform for $55 and a wine opener for $10. There's still other textbooks which I've to purchase tomorrow. Its just so much things.

Tomorrow I've got to wake up at 5.30am so as to get to school at 7am. How I wonder i'm gonna bring myself to manage all these again.

Went to the temple with my mom yesterday. Prayed really sincered with what i got till the tip of my twinkies. Sigh, i just hope the God could feel it. I always missed out something to tell God when I'm supposed to tell her. Like I always did prayed to get a good headstart on relationships with new friends and in turn blossoms into many others. And to get good results for my main examinations and never to retake supp. When i was just about to turn my joss stick in to the lady, I remembered i forget to ask for blessings on getting on good terms with the new CA and other subject lecturers. Shucks! How could i be so forgetful. Well. I did in the end. Hahaes.. When I dropped in my donations into the box. I prayed once again in addition to the health of my family. I walked out feeling satisfied. :)


A big Grin on my faCe.

That bitch talks to me again. (Hey, don't you go all criticism on me. She's the one who started it first.) Guess she has no one. But I have 2. Lol-ed. It feels so weird having to face her all over again in the same class. I seriously hates it but what can i do? I can't wish that she's in the wrong class.. I so desperately wish she's not going to stick around me. She's the one who gone all mighty and arrogant, ignoring me. And now she expects me to be friendly with her again? Then what am i? A dog who wills to her beck and calls?


I'm feeling so ShiTTy!!

I don't want to go counting down. I'm nervous enough already. A total of 8 modules. Just darn great. I'll just have to remind myself and justdo my best. I can do it. What's the worst that has not been thrown to my face? Right?

Was supposed to meet Mei xian yesterday at 5pm and shop around OC and Far east. But, however, you guessed it. She was late. In the end, we meet at 7 plus and change our venue to somewhere closer to our convenience: Parkway parade. By the time we reached there, it was already 8 plus. Then we shopped 1 hour at cotton on purchasing shoes, cardigans and tank tops. I bought the same pair of shoes as her. Just thought i might purchase a new covered shoes for the start of my sophomore year to thread on. And a few tank tops to wear in addition to those I've worn for the past year. Boring. Yup. So that's that for yesterday.

Today I finally dyed my hair back to black. Omg. Hated it to the last tip of my hair strand. Argh. Because of SSM, I've to dye back to black. A professional waitress. That's what the management wants.

Tomorrow I'm gonna meet Xian, Ying and Belle for K session. :) Well, enjoyment for me for just 3 more days with friends before going back to school next week. Bleh.

1 week to reopening of school. New textbooks, new topic, new friends, change of lecturer and classrooms. Uncertainty and anxiety seems to grow on me again. Be strong girl!!

Hm. Forget to post this. Monday meet up with Fasheng at 3pm and played badminton at the court behind my house. It was a one to one, with the changing of players in between my sis and me. We played till we sweat alot. All except for him. He didn't seems to sweat a single bead. Lols. We played for 1 hour plus before heading up to my house to bathe and have a change of clothes. Hm. That was a first time a guy came and bathe at my house. Hahaes. Who says girls can't have guy friends on a strictly normal friendship?

After all that resting, we head on down to Dhoby ghout at 6pm to meet Xian. Bought movie tickets for Ju-On:Black Vs White for 9.15pm and watched for a total time of 2 hours. In between scenes, Mei xian and me was like slouching closer towards each other. Covering our eyes with our hands when the ghosts appears. Hahaes. So funny. Didn't even dared to step into the toilet after the movie too. Lols. By the time the movie ends, its 11.15pm. We say our byes to Fasheng and took a bus back to Bedok. :)

A fun and tiring day chases the monday blues away!

Just received my results via sms. I didn't know what "GS" stands for. However, to confirm, I did a double check the second time through my student portal itself and found out that I've passed. Passed! :) I couldn't believed it. Throughout the supp exam, I'm so damn unsure of the answers I've written down. And even at the last half an hour, with the nature's calling, I felt so urgent. Finally couldn't bear it any longer, I rushed to the toilet and brisk walk back to the exam hall.

If I really didn't pass, I really don't know what to do. With the past problems that persisted me for the past year, I'm seriously am on the verge of falling deep into the depth of darkness. I might even quit. I know. I'm not strong enough. But seriously, who could take into stride that whatever one do, it is never to attain that As and Bs. But to attain Cs and Ds and even at times, felt that its a 50/ 50 percentage point of passing? And the selfishness of those who surround you does not lend a helping hand but to leave you in the lurge? ARGH. I want to shout out high and mighty loud. Its too constricting in there. There's not even a tiny breath of air left for me anymore.

I just know the qualifications is my status. My status in this goddamn society place. So god save me.