I see cob webs. Hahaes. I'm lazy to blog and am hectic with my school assignments. That is till my body break down. I am persevering so hard to meet up with the daily requirements of my school that even my body turn weak. See? Even my body knows.

Sigh. On the other hand, I'm still stuck on lecture 1 of my POM notes. What to do?! what to do?! so little time yet so many things to take it in. Do give me some advise on how to study for open book test? I've not attended any so far thus i'm unconfident of it myself. I don't study smart. Lols. Cause i'm a slow learner.

Another persisting matter~

Took an mc today due to serious sore throat and runny nose, heavy head and sore muscles. Went to consult a doctor and took some pills and head straight to bed. I was in the midst of sleeping when my phone sound for sms alert. Look through it and saw this message: "I just don't understand why Mei xian and Li juan like you so much always like to talk to a fren whom so timid to own up to her own mistake!"

I was so groggy and pissed off at the moment. Why do i have to suffer from her accusation and the fault finding again? I'm so tired of having to face this all over again. And i'm not happy about it. Who does? And so I confronted her once again. In reply to her message i wrote that I'm not timid. This is her own problem and that she shouldn't pushed it on me. I can be nice when we're friends but then again, i can stand up for my own right when i'm being accused of wrongly. I said to her that her boyfriend wasn't so great and that i'm uninterested in him. It is her who felt insecure about her own relationship. Because of having to rack up the past when it is her who forgave me 1 month ago and accepted my explanation. Thus, i said to her that seriously she had some kind of split personality. And that if she wishes to confront me in person, I recommended her to meet me soon but that will have to wait as i'm having tests and all.

And her next response was:
"What split personality? I think you're the one who has it! If there's any problem between me and my boyfriend it's our business, and i never say that it concerns you okay! You think too highly of yourself!"

I hated the ping pong ball kind of suspension. Sms, read, wait, reply then sms. So i rang her up instead. She ejected my call after 5 rangs. WTH? So i sent her a message demanding to know what is the goddamn mistake that she reproached me of. And scolded her for being narrow minded and shallow. She didn't replied. Then about 7pm a phone call with an unknown no. rang up. I pick up the call and guess who's that? Her friend! Can you believed it? Omg. She called and asked me to meet up regarding her strangled relationship between her and her boyfriend. And so i said that i've explained very clearly in regards to that matter previously. I am in no fault and neither should i apologise. Besides there were 2 witness: myself and her bf vs her. If her bf could assured her that there were no hand contact between us, so could she still assumed she was right? I added on that i'm no friend betrayal and won't lied to my friends about such things. And that if i'm interested in her bf, i would've got on a relationship with him in the first place and not waited till my friend was in a relationship and I'm a third party acting all hanky panky behind lest in front of her. I asked her friend does this make sense?

Forget about it. There's no point and no ending in this frickin bullshit. One word to describe:

I'm wondering where is my extremity? How far does it goes within me? These questions challenges me and pushes me to think them through. I'm trying real hard as much as i could. Independent is affiliated to lonely. Challenge is affiliated to pressure. Its never been this hard before. But this is my life now.