I can't bring it out to reject him directly. Its like the second time he brought up the subject he likes me. But I don't like him. I can name a few reasons. But because of considering the feelings, i didn't.

I seriously don't have that feeling for him. I told him we could be friends. On the surfaced he said that i don't have to be bothered by what he said and we could still carried on as friends like nothing has happened. But still he feel its kind of hard for him as if he's been rejected and embarrassed.

There's just no sparkle. Omg. How to ask him to give up?! Seriously, considering the harsh rejection method, I'm sure we're no more friends any longer.

I know you guys find that i'm kind of moody, vulgar and depressed. But the truth is, this is my only way of relieving myself of that bloody feeling. It was my worst nightmare ever since i stepped into Tp. Nothing good came out of it except for occasional lucks which happened only once in a blue moon. It sucks.

It feels kind of constricted here. There's totally no life. Even without joining extra curriculum courses, i'm busy enough with my hands tied. Every twice semester, i'll definitely meet some kind of joker who is always there making my life hard. I'm telling you its not just the students, the lecturers too. Bloody pain in the arse. Its not that i want to prejudice. But even an idiotic knows life has ups and downs. Every school has its difficulties. The society has its difficulty to face.

Being ironic once more, i'll like to end with this. You may count with your fingers from 1 to 3, do sit ups and ran around the field for 3 laps. It's all gonna end in a few seconds or minutes. But when is this helluva one year and a half gonna end soon?

When that girl throw verbal abuse to everyone she work with including me, she didn't stopped to think that it was actually her fault that she's finding imperfection upon others. It was because of that, people started to find her a nuisance, a bitch who rattled bad comments about others.

The thing is, she only realised that people act harshly (when the situation arised) and give her the cold shoulders. Thats why she pushed her anger and blame towards others whom she thought they deserved.

Just 4 more weeks and she's out of my hair.

Fuck the school work, the projects and damn irritating friends. Argh!!! I'm super stressed out by the numerous workload on hand. I hate Ms Quay now. She made me search for 2 articles and its requisite to be credible. With 10 damn bullet points for the following reflections on the implications of service. WTH!




Just point a GUN on my head now. Seriously.

Nowadays it seems to be more tiring for me. Did i mentioned I'm currently in my 2nd sem now? I got a change of friends. Or preferably classmates. I like them better than the previous one. In fact i like my group of malay friends. Only if i could understand what they are saying. That is why i wanna learn malay to bring myself closer into the group.

Other than that, almost everyday of my life i'm busy with my projects and tests. I've just finished the one on TTO today. The revision period for me was a pathetic number of 3 days to revise lecture 1 to 8. What now I'm gifted? Lols. Because of that i slept late into the early morn. Making myself more lethargic than before. You know, its just a matter of time, i'll collapse. I wonder when's that time due. Pardon my sardonic mood. Its just I'm sick of everything already.

I like these 2 particular friends in my class. I feel that i can communicate with them comfortably. Hahaes. Frequently, we'll hang out together during break. Its like they're always making me feel happy. Another reason my school days wouldn't feel so bored. We make a promised to have lunch at Eatzi before our 1 month holiday cum study break. Wonder will we make it come true..