I realized that everytime during practicum, I always seems to make mistakes without fail. I don't know what's wrong with me? I swear i know what i was doing. Perhaps it was the chef's particular standards that put me in the bad spot. Doesn't all pots and pans cooked as long as its metal? Whats wrong with selecting that particular medium pot when obviously the chef wants a larger one? And whats wrong with putting the tomato into the pot first and retrieve them later instead of bringing the water to a boil and place all tomatoes into it? It makes me feels stupid for being scolded of something so trivial and commonsensical. Well, perhaps these are the so called "Challenges" that are being posed in school. The road blocks that helps to advance yourself on further improvements. What shit.

I'm feeling jumpy and moody all throughout my years of studying. Even holidays are exceptionally precious to me especially this sem. It appears as if the holiday comes with a price and condition to prepare for more further strenuous road blocks ahead. I'm freaking uptight most of the time too. I felt like just staying in a corner and watch the world goes by without any annoying problems plaguing me.

P.S The world is rotten.